Coward

Everytime I see you appear in the virtual world...

I can't help but to hide away from you.

Eversince the day i found out, i can't seem to get over the fact that everything was a big fat lie. You don't really exist in my life anymore, and yet you're still stuck in my virtual world, like a parasite i cannot get rid of.

when i try to push you away, you kept asking why. can't you tell that i don't want you to be part of my life anymore? you've already made my life miserable, broke my heart, hurt my soul. i had to mend everything by myself. so why are you making this even more difficult for me?

I just want to forget you, so that i can move on with my life. i wish i could put my miseries in a box and burn it. but i can't. because you're still here! sitting in my virtual world!

The more i talk to you, the more annoyed i get. the more i thought about you, the more i cried. but i cannot run away, because you're everywhere. i deleted you from my msn once, but i always appear online on your side. i tried blocking you, only for you to find out and demanded why.

I realised that i am weak, and i cannot stand for myself. i don't have the guts to tell you in the face to get the hell out of my life. i don't have the confidence to tell you that i am sick and tired of listening to your bitching about your life when actually you're showered with love by everyone around you. i am not brave enough to tell you that all this while, you're nothing but a naive child that takes everything for granted. i want to tell you off many times, to tell you to appreciate what you have in life, rather than ranting about it.

And the beauty about all this, is that you have hurt me without realising it, because all you ever think about is yourself. and i am a coward to look at you in the eye and tell you how i feel.

so yeah... i resort to let it all out here instead. how pathetic is that >.>