Feelings

Dear readers,

Because I am only human [and a screwed 21-year-old who allowed her blog to be her diary] I'm going to rant my heart out. If you don't like to read what I'm goin to say, please take your cursor and put it at the lil red X box at the top right corner and click it. Thank you.



It's like....

God is up to something again, and thought "hmm, let's go mess with Yuin's head today. It's been awhile eh?"

He did a very good job though. Not that I'm blaming him now. Get a grip people, it's just a word of expression. Gawd, I can already picture a few people going after me for mentioning His name in my ranting.

Sure, I was angry at one point. When I thought everyone was over and ok, you had to go to the extreme and did something which hurt me in every way. You did that for some other purpose apparently, but did you even consider my feelings when I see what you had done?

If that's not enough on my plate, some other people decide to make my life even more miserable on the same day. I don't know why people like to make others suffer and stress. Seriously, get a life! And then you get all upset for something I don't even know what I did! WTH?! Leaving that place never felt so good in my life. I can't believe I'm actually relieved to be back in kbu.

What's the point of living if I can't be who I am? I'm not allowed to be angry once in awhile? So what does this means? I have to be a zombie and don't feel anything for the rest of my life? I'm suppose to just act neutral and pretend nothing is happening? I'm so sick with this. I'm so sick of pretending. I'm sick of taking the blame in order of other people's happiness. You people are so freaking selfish and only think of yourselves! What about others? What about me? Am I just some puppet you can use and throw about to your liking? Sorry people, I seriously need to get this out of my chest. I'm not just a thing where you just like to lash out on. I'm also a human like you with feelings like you if you seem to forget. I just had enough with all of you. Happy December.