Christmas was a lil quiet this year...
Woke up feeling restless again. Couldn't take it anymore so I dragged my mum to the park near MeiJyn's place [bless us for staying there. It's nice to wake up in a quiet house for a change.] and had a good jog. The air was so fresh and the environment was so beautiful. Cleared my mind. Went over to Eepoh's house in the afternoon and spent the day there.
Mum decided to drag me along to Genting as my family was gonna watch Francis Yip's concert and she didn't wanna go for it. So we ended up lepaking in Coffee Bean. Dark chocolate peppermint was a lil disappointing. After that we went to the casino (finally!! :D) Had to show my IC and the guard was looking at me suspiciously cos i had short hair in my IC :P We had fun there, but after that it got a lil boring.
I have no idea how people can just stare at the machines and press the same button all day, all the time ><
After that I went down with my eldest sis while the rest stayed the night there.
I thought Christmas will keep you off my mind. Spending time with family really helped, but somehow at the back of my mind, I kept wondering what you were doing today. It wasn't really an emo thing, just wondered. Then I got distracted by the people around me and you were off my mind once more. And here I am now, alone downstairs. Coco's sleeping comfortably in her cage as I type this. You once more came back in my mind, this time it wasn't really just sitting at the backseat. It's kinda controlling my mind now. This really suck sometimes but I guess I will just have to live with it for the time being. Am suppose to be working on my project so that I can go and print my booklet out tomorrow. But somehow, the spirit in me kinda died tonight for some reason. I'm scared of starting my new semester knowing that you won't be by my side anymore. What if I need someone to comfort me in the middle of the night? No matter how many close friends I have, I wouldn't dare to wake them up, knowing that you will be there when I see you online, whether it's at 11pm or 3am. Talking to you takes my loneliness away but now that I'm not yours now, who can I look up to? Sigh. I sound like a broken record now.
The rest of the post shall be locked in me head as I shall try to drift off to sleep. Writing does help sometimes..
believe me, i know how it feels, i have come across it, trust me, feeling lonely and we dun hav someone to talk to? i felt even depressed before and after i have it. we feel such as we think inside a box. if u feel this again, u can jus text ur close friends, like me ma, i also hav noone.if u feel L*, so do all the singles...hahahaha, i understand, really, but if u havent found the right one, its better to let go, we might be a bit depressed for what had happened to urself, but u will feel that it is actually a blessing later on, who knows ur "destined" one is coming? its jus a matter of time, i guess i told u abut my sis rite?? haha, imagine her situation....stay positive!!!
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